Life

Introspective Reflection: My Life’s Patterns

Being excited for what’s to come after being humbled.

It’s the spring season. Life is not as usual for most people, all things considered.

Fortunately, to a certain extent, life is as usual for me.

For my past articles, I included the biggest message I wanted to convey at the end to tie everything I wrote together. This time, I’m doing it differently.

One is chance.

Two is coincidence.

Three is a pattern.

In the Spring of 2018, I was enchanted with Josie

As with the season, I thought everything appeared to be rosy

Sadly, fall was her preferred time of the year

So I bid adieu, au revoir, before proceeding to disappear

Right before the summer of 2018, I met someone who seemingly fit my stance on romance.

The seemingly perfect blessing to fall for so we synced up a tune and began to dance.

One is chance.

In the Spring of 2019, I was enamored with Caduceus

As with my efforts, I gave it my all so a failure won’t be justified by any excuse

Sadly, my traits and experience weren’t sufficient

So I just kept striving in order to always be proficient

In the summer of 2019, life became fanciful again after a couple months of decadence

What you get out will not always be what you think it should, like the angle of incidence

Two is coincidence.

In the Spring of 2020, I chased a courier

As with my quest, I thought I was breaking every pre-existing, preconceived, poorly constructed barrier

Sadly, the ones I destroyed were reconstructed with the very same foundation used when it was built

So no matter how seemingly great the chase is, you can’t have someone tag along if they simply don’t deem you it

Shortly after we severed ties, to my normal I returned and my trajectory pointed straight northern

Somehow, someway, it’s more enticing to stay in Earth than go for a trip to Saturn

Three is a pattern.

In the Spring of 2021, I will…

As with my… I ….

In a shocking change of events, … 

Breaking a three year pattern of experiencing something humbling before something great…

‘I missed out’ on some opportunities but I like to think that the same ones that ‘I missed out’ on missed out on even more. 

In a way, life is familiar.

Sometimes, life is funny.

Most of the time, life is fascinating.

If I’m wrong, however, and this pattern is here to stay, then I can’t wait to see what next spring has in store for me and the next great thing I will experience as each succeeding reward is more everlasting and life-changing than the one it preceded.

I don’t like the first half of the pattern but I love the second. I can’t complain. I’ll gladly take both the humbling experiences and the life-changing ones. I can’t have everything… yet.

Timing is crucial.

Nothing can be great if everything is great. 

In life, everything happens for a reason and things work out how they should depending on decisions made, either yours’ or others’.

I feel great about the chance that became a coincidence that just recently became a pattern.

How do you feel about the pattern(s) in yours?